Steph’s Story
This content talks about anxiety, depression, and panic attacks, which might be upsetting to some people.
On May 14, 2022, I jumped out of a plane!
Well, I was tied safely to a trained instructor who I completely trusted to know what they were doing. So why did I do it?
For a long time, I’ve dealt with depression and anxiety.
Depression tends to come out of nowhere when life gets too much. It doesn’t happen often, but when it does, it’s really hard to see any hope. But through experience, I know there is always a way forward.
Living With Anxiety and Fear
Anxiety, on the other hand, is something I deal with every day.
It’s like having a voice in my head that keeps pointing out all the bad things that could happen. That voice reminds me of all the mistakes I’ve made and tells me I can’t do things because I’m afraid.
I’m scared of a lot of things.
Death, flying, being up high, small spaces, crowds, failing, even bad potatoes with eyes on them—the list is long!
The worst part is these fears stop me from having fun.
I used to avoid going to London because I was scared of having a panic attack on the train. I don’t take trips that involve trains or tunnels unless it’s really necessary, and even then, I plan it carefully to avoid busy times.
As for planes, the idea of falling from the sky in a small space with no way out, surrounded by other people, is enough to make me run away.
I’ve even stopped renewing my passport, which expired ten years ago, so I can’t fly anymore.
I really want to go to festivals, but I’ve never been because of the crowds.
Facing My Fears With a Skydive
At the start of the year, I made a decision—2022 would be the year I stopped being afraid.
I wanted to face my fears directly. And what better way to take on many of my fears at once than a skydive? I also hope that by doing this, I can help others who are struggling to find the courage to do the same.
The skydive was terrifying and exciting all at once.
There were moments where I felt pure fear mixed with extreme excitement and energy. I don’t think I’ll ever experience something like that again, but now I know that whenever I feel stuck or believe I can’t do something, I’ll remember the day I jumped out of a plane and realize I can do anything if I believe in myself.
Supporting Mental Health Awareness
Also, I wanted to raise money for the Mental Health Foundation, which works hard to spread awareness and prevent mental health issues.
So far, I’ve raised £1420 for the Foundation. Thank you to everyone who donated and supported me through this life-changing experience!
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